风车

红风车转一转吧~
福来我家
求丰收雨点降下~
花儿别怕
红花开笑一笑吧~
福来我家
云飘飘听风说话~
娃儿别怕

月缺月满顺时
下雨下雪听天
念挂像风筝不见面
有着线牵

红风车转一转吧~
福来我家
如分开雨点降下~
娃儿别怕

路近路远未明
念挂着我看星
愿带着你路风似静
变幻看清

红风车转一转吧~
福来我家
如分开雨点降下~
娃儿别怕

爹娘念挂

红风车转一转吧~
福来我家
如分开雨点降下~
娃儿别怕

华文？！英文？！

我从来没想过会有那么一天，我需要考虑运用哪一种语言来写部落格。是华文？或英文？很抱歉，我摒弃运用马来文来写部落格，并非我的造诣差，也没有任何贬低之意，而是没那个必要。

会想要用英文，只因它是个不可或缺的良伴，学业上需要它；未来也需要它。不运用它来多多提升、磨练下自己的水准，似乎又说不过去。英文、英文，踏入第三学府开始，它便开始变成了必备的、基本的生存资产，有它则存，无它则亡。正因为它的重要性，所以，"摒弃"一词与它无缘了。

会想要用华文，只因它是深得吾爱的挚友。从小至今，我的母语便是它，讲的话也离不开华语，所以它可以算是我的根，龙族子女最引以为傲的语言。曾经有朋友问过我，"英文不会更有效表达你的思想吗？！"他引用了反问句。我只是一笑置之，不置可否。因为我知道，无论运用哪个语言，每一个人的想法、喜好、风格皆不同，自然而然哪一种管道会更加完好妥善地表达个人思想也会随人而异，这是无可厚非之事，所以也不值深论。

暂且不论造诣，随性是我的宗旨。兴致来了，想运用华文就用华文；想琢磨自个儿的英文程度，玩玩一下，便用英文。有时候徘徊于其中，琢磨不定，便有两个选择：一则写，一则不写。有时，还能让小女子我感觉到李白笔下的一段诗"问余何事栖碧山，笑而不答心自闲"的奥秘呐~所以啊~这整个月便在我这种意兴阑珊、混混沌沌的作风中溜走了！嘻嘻~不见了！虽然混沌，但不代表脑袋迟钝；日子再怎么过，该知道的，该认真的，本姑娘倒是有动动脑筋想了想。时候到了，体内的劲力也会随而复发，从新运作。所以，各位乡亲好友不必担心，切莫挂怀；本姑娘仍然强壮如牛，声如洪钟…… 飞鱼曰:"欸~ '声如洪钟'应该不是这样用的吧？！" 本姑娘："你管我怎样用！哼！"飞鱼曰："怪女子一位。"本姑娘："嗯？！"

本姑娘和飞鱼就此停笔。鞠躬！

Time for Story-Sharing

Hello, fellow readers!! The month of November is almost end! So before it ends, I have a story to share with you. I read this story long time ago, and it is still fresh in my mind. There is nothing consider about the end of the month though, but the reason I post it up is simply it impressed me. Hope you enjoy it!!


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I will never forget the first time I saw her. She was there playing with the other children. She turned when she saw me entering the room, the previous look of pure radiance replaced by one of cold hardness. I was taken aback. It was only later, during my break that I had the chance to speak to the matron about her. Her name was Marie and had suffered from cancer since she was eight. Her parents had left her in the care of various hospitals, hoping for a cure but after all these years, there did not seem to be any more hope. Upon hearing that, I felt I wanted to get to know her better and be her friend.


As I got to know her over the many months ahead, I discovered that she was basically like any other child, warm and caring and all the children in the ward enjoyed spending time with her for she had the ability to bring out the best in a person. But it was her courage that I admired most in her. She knew she had only a short time left to live. Despite the outward appearance of strength, the look of despair could not be hidden especially when she saw the other children recovering and leaving the hospital, knowing that it would never happen for her.


Then, at the beginning of autumn, I discovered a change in her. No longer did she spend time with the other children and often was she alone by herself. When I asked her about it, she merely smile and said she was tired. The glow that used to make her eyes shine was no longer there. The doctor said her condition was stable and it was only a phase that she was going through. I prayed earnestly that it was true. Even though I knew only too well that nurses should not get too emotionally attached to their patients, I could not help but love this girl.


Marie was sitting by the window one evening, watching the leaves falling from the trees one by one. Her eyes were filled with unshed tears. When she saw me, she clung to me tightly and cried her heart out, her sobs muffled against me. When her crying subsided, I held her up and brought her to her bed. I tucked her in and gently brushed my lips on her forehead. As I turned to leave, Marie took my hand and said in a whisper,”Thank you.” I smiled and left the room.


The next morning, I went to the hospital and realized that everyone was rather quiet and subdued. I dismissed it as a figment of my imagination and went to check on Marie before beginning my duty for the day. When I entered the room, my blood ran cold – it was empty. Just then, Matron entered and delivered the news that I knew would come sooner or later and yet dreaded to hear. Marie had died in her sleep the previous night.
The sadness that filled me was overwhelming and my vision was blurred by the tears that flowed like rain down my face. I moved towards the window where Marie had sat the night before and saw the last autumn leaves falling to the ground.


~End~


I do not know who is the writer of the story, the title neither. I’m sorry for this.


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A short farewell

Blank!!

When I looked at my academic calendar, I knew nothing about what I am going to do in the next two months break. Yes, I am going to have a long semester break after going through four months of Semester One academic coursework in Taylor's University College. During these four months, I had gone through a hectic college life which was full with different assignments, class tests, quizzes, and the most important exams in Sem1 : IELTS exam and finally, the final exam.

I went through those tasks one by one, and with the help from my comrades here together with my own determination, I fought for the best and I had succeeded in doing it to which the outcomes of my works breached beyond my expectation of myself. I was shocked nevertheless I was satisfied with the positive growth I had shown in my performances. Thanks to all my dear friends and family who always support me whenever I lost myself.

As what my friends always say, time flies without pause. Till now, 20th of November 2009, we had fumbled across our sem one unintentionally, and the last school period of Sem 1 was just ended nine hours ago. Four of my "foster" sisters: Chloe(the eldest),Jen(the fifth),Shang Qi(the sixth), and Hui Hui(the seventh) had gone back to their hometown today, more specifically this afternoon. Tomorrow will be me(the third), Jeanne(the forth) and Wan Yu(the eighth)'s turn to go back to our hometowns which are far away from each other. Lastly, my beloved second sister, Beatrice will be going home next week, right after she settle her personal matter.

The destination is the same: Going home. Yet, the direction is different. The four cardinal points(East, South, North,West), plus the other four intermediate directions, eight channels to go, and everyone stay in different directions.

Well..this will be a short farewell between us, u and me and my dear friends. We shall meet again in the coming 14th of January 2010. Will you?? Take care, my friends!! Have a happy and good holidays~~=)

(^___________^)

p/s: I won't let my blog freeze in this coming December. Lets warm it up!!=) Jingle bell~~

想。过去。未来。

郁闷。。。

当人没有事情做的时候，思绪就会开始胡乱飞，胡乱想；想想过去，梦梦未来。

考完试后，大家变得特别空闲；此时此景与两个星期前的情况宛如天壤之别。

依然记得两个星期前，随着年终大考及国际英文评估考试，大家忙得团团转，一刻也不能分心；深怕一分心，知识就会随风飞去，消失地无影无终。当时，国际英文评估考试的重要显然是大家焦距的中心。怀着忐忑不安的心情，我看着朋友们一个个踏进考场，一项接一项地过关斩将。随着朋友们考完后愉悦轻松的笑容，嘻嘻哈哈的谈笑声，我的心情并没有因此而松懈，因为，我知道，轮到我了！！

接踵下来的考试曾一度让我觉得很压迫，很窒息。庆幸地，我有一群很好的朋友，和他们一起读书、一起温习、一起讨论问题，一起谈笑风生；烦闷深奥的课题，视乎也变得简单，头大的问题也迎刃而解了。皆大欢喜，不是吗？？真的很谢谢他们！！

最近，我和一群死党去NEWAY唱K，唱着唱着，竟唱了整个下午！！随后的账单，竟然高达百余块。汗呐~~~第一次跑去唱K，消费却这么贵。心。。。痛死了~~~哈哈

接下来的一天，我破例没去上课，跑到大老远的云顶逍遥去。哈哈。。。但我并不内疚哦~~因为我有交代了一声，让我亲亲妈咪知道我的去向，不让她担心！！我。。很乖吧！！！哈哈。。。

(^____________^)

玩归玩，但对于朋友所给于我的个人意见，我还真的认认真真想了一回。领悟出来的东西，还真是非笔墨能形容。所以这两天以来，我的收获也算是不少哦！！！

彩莹对我说，我的部落格很深奥，有太多深沉难懂的词连接在一起，使整个句式变得局促，难懂。而卉慧也给了我同样的评语，不同的是，她。。。多多少少还抓得到我的信息，但多半不明确。模糊。说起来，那些艰难、复杂、混乱不明的词、字，不就真正的体现出我那复杂，难懂的自我吗？有时连我自己也不懂得自己，也难怪朋友们不能明白我。无奈呐~~~

话虽如此，但友谊依然不变，友情依然与我同在。朋友，干杯！！！

想着想着~~时间又溜走了！！

有时候，我真的很矛盾。感觉自己像个双面人，一个开朗，一个阴沉。思绪常常混淆在这两者之间，所以情绪也随着起伏不定，让我变得更加难以捉摸，更加不平稳；就像一座睡火山，一旦到了极限，滚滚岩浆便会倾泻而下，而火山的喷发又会造成多少伤害呢？？唉~~~

有时候，我很梦幻。喜欢幻想这，幻想那；发发白日梦，回归到自己梦中乐园，无忧无虑过一天。和多数女孩子一样，喜欢幻想自己的白马王子，与亲爱的他漫步在袅袅炊烟升起，夕阳西下的宁静田边。仰或是。。幻想和他在维多利亚式的舞会中，穿着维多利亚时代的蓬蓬裙，与帅帅的他翩翩起舞，徘徊在那缤纷灿烂的时光，仿佛世界只剩咱们俩。还有许许多多小说里的情节，也曾经成了我幻想的插曲，填满了我贫瘠的烂漫细胞。

未来的我，又会变成怎样的一个人呢？？真期待！！

嗯~~~~想着想着。。肚子饿了。好了，休息时间到！！！该停笔咯！！掰掰，下次见！！

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Pictures Worth A Thousand Words

Am I Going To Lose My Friends?

Am I going to lose my friends??

These few days especially after receiving a sudden blow from my clique of friends, everything seems to be so obscure to me. People, things, events and myself, I am totally lost!! I found out I had lost my self-perspective, and principle which I used to keep along with me in my routine. I never put a doubt on the principle I held for so long, nevertheless in this time, I did. I doubt for the effectiveness of the maxim that I had with me since I was a child, and I really felt discouraged when I tried to figure out the matter that confused me these days and the solutions did not come out with a good sign, I did not know myself very well.

Desperate...

Yet, I still tried my best to conceal my baffle in front of my peel group, tried hard to keep myself seems normal in front of them. Tried hard to cheer myself up!! Yeah~~indeed it worked!! As my friends brought me to One-U for a sing-out-loud event today, I put all my energy in that event, tried to sing as many songs as I can, and I really could get self-fulfillment from there even though it was just a mere short-term happiness that overwhelmed me tonight, but at least it gave me a chance to get myself out of the torment I had with me.

I am NOT disliking the things that happened on me, I am NOT!!!Perhaps, my actions showed an adverse impression of me to you that I was rejecting the world, but PLEASE...for those who really understand me, please...please get yourselves understand that I am NOT rejecting anything, I am not getting myself away from you, nether hate nor disdain you. I am just confused and perhaps I am too skeptical in my own way. I am indeed putting myself in some kind of trouble that does not necessarily affect me, yet I put myself in the agony unwittingly.

Please give me some time to make myself clear of what I want for now. Please...perhaps, if you could help me, do you mind to leave me some advise as my friends used to be?? I am gonna sort it out~~Heal myself~~

T__________________T

I am too sensitive!! I do not know why I tend to be like this once in a couple of months...MISERY...

Anyhow, I wish I could hold my friends tight with me while I am in such a toilsome dilemma. I do not want to lose any of my friends, especially those I cherish so much!! Please forgive me, my dear friends...if I had done something that hurt you so much..I swear I never have the intention to hurt you all. NEVER!!

Please try to understand me..Please~~~