Time for Story-Sharing

Hello, fellow readers!! The month of November is almost end! So before it ends, I have a story to share with you. I read this story long time ago, and it is still fresh in my mind. There is nothing consider about the end of the month though, but the reason I post it up is simply it impressed me. Hope you enjoy it!!


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I will never forget the first time I saw her. She was there playing with the other children. She turned when she saw me entering the room, the previous look of pure radiance replaced by one of cold hardness. I was taken aback. It was only later, during my break that I had the chance to speak to the matron about her. Her name was Marie and had suffered from cancer since she was eight. Her parents had left her in the care of various hospitals, hoping for a cure but after all these years, there did not seem to be any more hope. Upon hearing that, I felt I wanted to get to know her better and be her friend.


As I got to know her over the many months ahead, I discovered that she was basically like any other child, warm and caring and all the children in the ward enjoyed spending time with her for she had the ability to bring out the best in a person. But it was her courage that I admired most in her. She knew she had only a short time left to live. Despite the outward appearance of strength, the look of despair could not be hidden especially when she saw the other children recovering and leaving the hospital, knowing that it would never happen for her.


Then, at the beginning of autumn, I discovered a change in her. No longer did she spend time with the other children and often was she alone by herself. When I asked her about it, she merely smile and said she was tired. The glow that used to make her eyes shine was no longer there. The doctor said her condition was stable and it was only a phase that she was going through. I prayed earnestly that it was true. Even though I knew only too well that nurses should not get too emotionally attached to their patients, I could not help but love this girl.


Marie was sitting by the window one evening, watching the leaves falling from the trees one by one. Her eyes were filled with unshed tears. When she saw me, she clung to me tightly and cried her heart out, her sobs muffled against me. When her crying subsided, I held her up and brought her to her bed. I tucked her in and gently brushed my lips on her forehead. As I turned to leave, Marie took my hand and said in a whisper,”Thank you.” I smiled and left the room.


The next morning, I went to the hospital and realized that everyone was rather quiet and subdued. I dismissed it as a figment of my imagination and went to check on Marie before beginning my duty for the day. When I entered the room, my blood ran cold – it was empty. Just then, Matron entered and delivered the news that I knew would come sooner or later and yet dreaded to hear. Marie had died in her sleep the previous night.
The sadness that filled me was overwhelming and my vision was blurred by the tears that flowed like rain down my face. I moved towards the window where Marie had sat the night before and saw the last autumn leaves falling to the ground.


~End~


I do not know who is the writer of the story, the title neither. I’m sorry for this.


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A short farewell

Blank!!

When I looked at my academic calendar, I knew nothing about what I am going to do in the next two months break. Yes, I am going to have a long semester break after going through four months of Semester One academic coursework in Taylor's University College. During these four months, I had gone through a hectic college life which was full with different assignments, class tests, quizzes, and the most important exams in Sem1 : IELTS exam and finally, the final exam.

I went through those tasks one by one, and with the help from my comrades here together with my own determination, I fought for the best and I had succeeded in doing it to which the outcomes of my works breached beyond my expectation of myself. I was shocked nevertheless I was satisfied with the positive growth I had shown in my performances. Thanks to all my dear friends and family who always support me whenever I lost myself.

As what my friends always say, time flies without pause. Till now, 20th of November 2009, we had fumbled across our sem one unintentionally, and the last school period of Sem 1 was just ended nine hours ago. Four of my "foster" sisters: Chloe(the eldest),Jen(the fifth),Shang Qi(the sixth), and Hui Hui(the seventh) had gone back to their hometown today, more specifically this afternoon. Tomorrow will be me(the third), Jeanne(the forth) and Wan Yu(the eighth)'s turn to go back to our hometowns which are far away from each other. Lastly, my beloved second sister, Beatrice will be going home next week, right after she settle her personal matter.

The destination is the same: Going home. Yet, the direction is different. The four cardinal points(East, South, North,West), plus the other four intermediate directions, eight channels to go, and everyone stay in different directions.

Well..this will be a short farewell between us, u and me and my dear friends. We shall meet again in the coming 14th of January 2010. Will you?? Take care, my friends!! Have a happy and good holidays~~=)

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p/s: I won't let my blog freeze in this coming December. Lets warm it up!!=) Jingle bell~~

想。过去。未来。

郁闷。。。

当人没有事情做的时候，思绪就会开始胡乱飞，胡乱想；想想过去，梦梦未来。

考完试后，大家变得特别空闲；此时此景与两个星期前的情况宛如天壤之别。

依然记得两个星期前，随着年终大考及国际英文评估考试，大家忙得团团转，一刻也不能分心；深怕一分心，知识就会随风飞去，消失地无影无终。当时，国际英文评估考试的重要显然是大家焦距的中心。怀着忐忑不安的心情，我看着朋友们一个个踏进考场，一项接一项地过关斩将。随着朋友们考完后愉悦轻松的笑容，嘻嘻哈哈的谈笑声，我的心情并没有因此而松懈，因为，我知道，轮到我了！！

接踵下来的考试曾一度让我觉得很压迫，很窒息。庆幸地，我有一群很好的朋友，和他们一起读书、一起温习、一起讨论问题，一起谈笑风生；烦闷深奥的课题，视乎也变得简单，头大的问题也迎刃而解了。皆大欢喜，不是吗？？真的很谢谢他们！！

最近，我和一群死党去NEWAY唱K，唱着唱着，竟唱了整个下午！！随后的账单，竟然高达百余块。汗呐~~~第一次跑去唱K，消费却这么贵。心。。。痛死了~~~哈哈

接下来的一天，我破例没去上课，跑到大老远的云顶逍遥去。哈哈。。。但我并不内疚哦~~因为我有交代了一声，让我亲亲妈咪知道我的去向，不让她担心！！我。。很乖吧！！！哈哈。。。

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玩归玩，但对于朋友所给于我的个人意见，我还真的认认真真想了一回。领悟出来的东西，还真是非笔墨能形容。所以这两天以来，我的收获也算是不少哦！！！

彩莹对我说，我的部落格很深奥，有太多深沉难懂的词连接在一起，使整个句式变得局促，难懂。而卉慧也给了我同样的评语，不同的是，她。。。多多少少还抓得到我的信息，但多半不明确。模糊。说起来，那些艰难、复杂、混乱不明的词、字，不就真正的体现出我那复杂，难懂的自我吗？有时连我自己也不懂得自己，也难怪朋友们不能明白我。无奈呐~~~

话虽如此，但友谊依然不变，友情依然与我同在。朋友，干杯！！！

想着想着~~时间又溜走了！！

有时候，我真的很矛盾。感觉自己像个双面人，一个开朗，一个阴沉。思绪常常混淆在这两者之间，所以情绪也随着起伏不定，让我变得更加难以捉摸，更加不平稳；就像一座睡火山，一旦到了极限，滚滚岩浆便会倾泻而下，而火山的喷发又会造成多少伤害呢？？唉~~~

有时候，我很梦幻。喜欢幻想这，幻想那；发发白日梦，回归到自己梦中乐园，无忧无虑过一天。和多数女孩子一样，喜欢幻想自己的白马王子，与亲爱的他漫步在袅袅炊烟升起，夕阳西下的宁静田边。仰或是。。幻想和他在维多利亚式的舞会中，穿着维多利亚时代的蓬蓬裙，与帅帅的他翩翩起舞，徘徊在那缤纷灿烂的时光，仿佛世界只剩咱们俩。还有许许多多小说里的情节，也曾经成了我幻想的插曲，填满了我贫瘠的烂漫细胞。

未来的我，又会变成怎样的一个人呢？？真期待！！

嗯~~~~想着想着。。肚子饿了。好了，休息时间到！！！该停笔咯！！掰掰，下次见！！

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Pictures Worth A Thousand Words

Am I Going To Lose My Friends?

Am I going to lose my friends??

These few days especially after receiving a sudden blow from my clique of friends, everything seems to be so obscure to me. People, things, events and myself, I am totally lost!! I found out I had lost my self-perspective, and principle which I used to keep along with me in my routine. I never put a doubt on the principle I held for so long, nevertheless in this time, I did. I doubt for the effectiveness of the maxim that I had with me since I was a child, and I really felt discouraged when I tried to figure out the matter that confused me these days and the solutions did not come out with a good sign, I did not know myself very well.

Desperate...

Yet, I still tried my best to conceal my baffle in front of my peel group, tried hard to keep myself seems normal in front of them. Tried hard to cheer myself up!! Yeah~~indeed it worked!! As my friends brought me to One-U for a sing-out-loud event today, I put all my energy in that event, tried to sing as many songs as I can, and I really could get self-fulfillment from there even though it was just a mere short-term happiness that overwhelmed me tonight, but at least it gave me a chance to get myself out of the torment I had with me.

I am NOT disliking the things that happened on me, I am NOT!!!Perhaps, my actions showed an adverse impression of me to you that I was rejecting the world, but PLEASE...for those who really understand me, please...please get yourselves understand that I am NOT rejecting anything, I am not getting myself away from you, nether hate nor disdain you. I am just confused and perhaps I am too skeptical in my own way. I am indeed putting myself in some kind of trouble that does not necessarily affect me, yet I put myself in the agony unwittingly.

Please give me some time to make myself clear of what I want for now. Please...perhaps, if you could help me, do you mind to leave me some advise as my friends used to be?? I am gonna sort it out~~Heal myself~~

T__________________T

I am too sensitive!! I do not know why I tend to be like this once in a couple of months...MISERY...

Anyhow, I wish I could hold my friends tight with me while I am in such a toilsome dilemma. I do not want to lose any of my friends, especially those I cherish so much!! Please forgive me, my dear friends...if I had done something that hurt you so much..I swear I never have the intention to hurt you all. NEVER!!

Please try to understand me..Please~~~

How To Save A Life

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life

~ The Fray

You Belong With Me

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, She's upset
She's going off about something that you said
She doesnt get your humour like I do

I'm in the room, its a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesnt like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're lookin for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Walkin the streets with you in your worn out jeans
I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on the park bench thinkin to myself
Hey isnt this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I havent seen it in awhile, since she brought you down
You say you find I know you better than that
Hey, Whatcha doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standin by, waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Oh I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry
I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams
I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understand you?
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by or waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that
You belong with me
You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me
You belong with me

~ Taylor Swift

Sometimes

You tell me you're in love with me
Like you can't take your pretty eyes away from me
It's not that I don't want to stay

But every time you come too close I move away
I wanna believe in everything that you say
'Cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move slow
There's things about me you just have to know

Sometimes I run(sometimes)
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time

I don't wanna be so shy (uh i)
Every time that I'm alone I wonder why
Hope that you will wait for me
You'll see that you're the only one for me

I wanna believe in everything that you say
'Cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move slow
There's things about me you just have to know

Repeat CHORUS
Come just hang around and you'll see
There's nowhere I'd rather be
If you love me, trust in me
the way that I.... trust in you

Repeat CHORUS
all I really want is to hold you tight

~Britney Spear

懒惰虫的先师

惰性，人人皆有之。


无可否认，每个人都会偷懒。无论是白人、黑人或是我们较熟悉的黄种人，绝对曾想过或做过“偷闲”的举动。 偷偷闲，谁不会啊！？成人不就是个很好的例子了吗？更何况是小孩子！


烦闷枯燥的工作迫使人们压抑着自己的生命过活。同样的东西，日复一日地做不停，谁不闷呐？？所以，偷懒似乎变成了合理的借口让人类喘几口凉气，以避免自己的生命值持续下降。这。。。多多少少也该会让自己恢复些体力，好在这尔虞我诈的社会中继续奋斗下去。


接下来，我有个故事想和大家分享。我相信，那些有修读中国文学的朋友们肯定知道谁是差不多先生吧！！他可是个很出名的懒惰虫哟！！！好吧，让我们来重温他的事迹吧！！


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你知道中国最有名的人是谁？

提起此人，人人皆晓，处处闻名。他姓差，名不多，是各省各县各村人氏。
你一定见过他，一定听过别人谈起他。差不多先生的名字天天挂在大家的口头，
因为他是中国全国人的代表。
差不多先生的相貌和你和我都差不多。
他有一双眼睛，但看的不很清楚；有两只耳朵，但听的不很分明；
有鼻子和嘴，但他对于气味和口味都不很讲究。
他的脑子也不小，但他的记性却不很精明，他的思想也不很细密。

他常常说：“凡事只要差不多，就好了。何必太精明呢？”
他小的时候，他妈叫他去买红糖，他买了白糖回来。
他妈骂他，他摇摇头说：“红糖白糖不是差不多吗？”

他在学堂的时候，先生问他：“直隶省的西边是哪一省？”
他说是陕西。先生说，“错了。是山西，不是陕西。”
他说：“陕西同山西，不是差不多吗？”

后来他在一个钱铺里做伙计；他也会写，也会算，只是总不会精细。
十字常常写成千字，千字常常写成十字。
掌柜的生气了，常常骂他。
他只是笑嘻嘻地赔小心道：“千字比十 字只多一小撇，不是差不多吗？”

有一天，他为了一件要紧的事，要搭火车到上海去。
他从从容容地走到火车站，迟了两分钟，火车已开走了。
他白瞪着眼，望着远远的火车上的煤烟，
摇摇头道：“只好明天再走了，今天走同明天走，也还差不多。可是火车公司未免太认真了。
八点三十分开，同八点三十二分开，不是差不多吗？”
他一面说，一面慢慢地走回家，心里总不明白为什么火车不肯等他两分钟。

有一天，他忽然得了急病，赶快叫家人去请东街的汪医生。
那家人急急忙忙地跑去，一时寻不着东街的汪大夫，却把西街牛医王大夫请来了。
差不多先生病在床上，知道寻错了人；但病急了，身上痛苦，心里焦急，等不得了，
心里想道：“好在王大夫同汪大夫也差不多，让他试试看罢。”
于是这位牛医王大夫走近床前，用医牛的法子给差不多先生治病。
不上一点钟，差不多先生就一命呜呼了。

差不多先生差不多要死的时候，一口气断断续续地说道：
“活人同死人也差……差……差不多，……凡事只要……差……差……不多……就……好了，
……何……何……必……太……太认真呢？“他说完了这句话，方才绝气了。
他死后，大家都很称赞差不多先生样样事情看得破，想得通；
大家都说他一生不肯认真，不肯算帐，不肯计较，真是一位有德行的人。
于是大家给他取个死后的法号，叫他做圆通大师。
他的名誉越传越远，越久越大。无数无数的人都学他的榜样。
于是人人都成了一个差不多先生。——然而中国从此就成为一个懒人国了。 

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怎么样？
看完这故事后，你有什么感想呢？？
你觉得我们该向差不多先生学习呢，还是该避开这种习性呢？？
真的欢迎你留些感想，让我知道全世界华人堆中长大的龙的传人，想法又会有什么不同呢？
真期待！！！

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反对无效，懒惰虫！！！=P

IELTS Week

Well, this time!! I am going to talk about my feeling on what had happened to me throughout the week of "IELTS"(02112009-07112009).

As soon as all my Group 4, 5, and 6 friends finished their IELTS test last week, stress had changed its direction and aimed itself towards me. Unwittingly, I became the next victim of it. It was such a torment when I tardily came to a realization that IELTS had spread its claws and held me tight in its palm. Tonnes of pressure was exerted on me and I was so out of breath.

On Monday itself, I knew my Speaking test would be held on Wednesday. Anxiety and stress kept on intruding my heart, and it made me discouraged, and it was really annoying. So, what I had done was I spent most of the time asking my friends questions and telling them to ask me back some questions which could make my "crapping system" failed. Yes! They had succeeded in the task I had given to them. I stuttered when they asked me about genetic relationship between family members. I could hardly answer well for the questions as my knowledge on that kind of topic was relatively scarce. I answered badly at that time. It really demoralized my confidence on crapping which I had once proud of it.

I went through my Tuesday classes unintentionally. Surprisingly, I talked in ENGLISH for whole day long!! I talked to my classmates, my housemates, my "casa"mates, and my best friends, I talked to them non-stop!!And finally, I ended up getting a mild sore throat at that particular night!My friends asked me to take a rest, but I insisted to keep on talking until my voice worsen, and my BIG SISTER scolded me, I rested.

~WEDNESDAY~

I had my speaking on that day.Well to say, my sore throat got well and the woman who interviewed me was a very nice and gentle woman. She liked to smile, indeed. No matter what I had said, she would nodded her head and smiled.Her expression made me felt relax, but my brain went blank when it came to part 2 where she wanted me to give her a newspaper or magazine article that I still remembered. Ooh gosh, who cares for articles?? I seldom read those articles in newspapers or magazines and even if I read, I'd never carved it in my mind. So..when it came to this question, I was stunted!!!!Totally stunted!!!! With a time of only one minute, it was indeed impossible for me to think about a real article that I still remembered at that time. So, I decided to create one fake article on my own. Whatever!!! As long as I could answer the question, who knows it was fake? Huh??

So, the questions she had asked me are listed below:

PART 1
PLACE I LIVE IN
1. Tell me about the town or city you live in now.
2. Do tourists visit your city? Why or why not?
3. How is the transport system in your city?
4. Will you stay in this city for long-term?

FRUITS AND VEGETABLES
1. Do you eat fruits or vegetables everyday?
2. Does it easy to get fresh fruits and vegetables in the place you live in now?
3. How do you get fresh fruits and vegetables in this city?
4. Did you eat fruits and vegetables when you were a child? Why?

PART 2
Describe a newspapers or magazines article that you are still remembered.
You should say:
1. What the title is
2. When do you read it
3. Where do you find it
4. What the content is

Explain why you are still remembered about the article.

5. Do you recommend the article to your friends?
6. Do your friends give you any opinions about the article?

PART 3
Lets talk about newspapers and magazines.
1. Between TV news and newspapers, which would be the preference of the people in your country? Why or why not?
2. Why people want to read newspapers?
3. Do you think young people will choose to read online news rather than written news? Why or why not?
4. What kinds of magazine do people read at different stages of their lives?
5. What are the positive and negative effects of magazines that will impose on the young today?

Phew... You should feel very glad as I'm still managed to call out all the questions she had asked me long time ago, as all my friends used to forget about it once they went out from the interview room. Haha..(actually, I had jotted down the questions on my Math books after that interview.=P)

One thing that I want to share is on that particular day, just like what other candidates would do, I swiftly peeked into the three interview rooms and I saw different things in those rooms. All the interviewers were Chinese women, the Australian Caucasian was in Hall A. Sad to say, I didn't have a chance to be the candidate of his. Anyhow, back to the first room, the interviewer was a normal Chinese woman who was "expression-less".

(Imagine the woman in the picture is older and expresion-less.The first interviewer was just like her,but older.)
No matter what the candidates said, she didn't give any expression or response, even a blink of her eyes was also a suspicion for me. I wondered whether she got blink her eyes or not. She is so cold!! The interviewer in the second room was a Chinese women as well..hmm..i guess, because I was not sure about her race. Nevertheless, she was so scary!! She looked so stern and unfriendly at all!!! Her look was so amusing and eerie for me, but for those who were going to be interviewed by her, her look was like The Green Hulk--scary, stern, and terrific!!

(I show you a sample picture of her expression,but please imagine that she was older and fatter. Indeed, she was!)
I saw one Malay guy who sat beside me at the waiting room took a deep breath when he saw her face. He was like knowing himself were going to be decapitated in the next minute, he frowned. I wished him luck and prayed for my luck as I was not going to be interviewed by her. THANKS GOD!!! Well, the lady in the third room was pretty nice and gentle as I had said just now. She liked to smile and she looked motherly!!!I liked her because she eased my tension well.=)

Thursday, Friday, and now Saturday..my IELTS listening, reading and writing tests.

I reached IDP at around 7.30am as I and Jen took Chloe's car rather than bus, because I didn't know what time the bus would come. So, when it came to 8.00am, we registered, we took our seats in our room and we waited for another 15 minutes before the invigilator started the "introduction" of the test at 8.30am. So, my comrades who were there with me include Chloe, Shang Qi, Mei Yee, Sze Ching, Siew King, Zu Bin, and Ahmad. Our seats were around the middle and the very end of the room. I was sitting in the middle of the room with one speaker at the very front of me which was 5 tables ahead and another speaker was beside me which was in a distance less than 1 metre! So, when the invigilator tested the speaker, the sound produced boomed my ears straight away!!It was so loud!!!!!!!And Chloe asked for the volume to be tuned to a higher pitch some more!!!Oh gosh~~~my poor ears!!!!!Luckily, the sound didn't distract me as I was still able to catch the words in the conversations.Phew...lucky!!

Next, we moved on to the reading test!!The test was very HARD!!!!For each passage, I couldn't catch the answers for at least 2 questions!!The answers were hidden and sometimes the questions were twisted. What I mean is the questions weren't straight forward and somehow the questions were like playing trick with us. Well...even though it was hard, but I was still managed to capture most of it, excluded some questions that were really intricate!!Okay, for reading test, what I can say for time is the time flew!!It flew extremely fast!!!!!!!!!!!As for the writing test, the questions were easy and straight forward. But i doubted we wouldn't be able to get a good band easily as the questions were easy in some way that was weird for me.

Well to say... sitting for almost three hours and doing tests in a continuous mode was indeed very exhausting!! However, I felt very relax and happy when I finished the tests!!!It was so COOL!!!!!!!I could feel the load that suppressed on my shoulders disappeared!!

HAPPY!!!!!

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S.C.H.O.L.A.R.S

No matter who we are, the poor or the rich, the retarded or the normal, as long as we are scholars, we can hardly avoid ourselves from being tagged by people as the most intelligent and all-rounded students who, they think, only need less effort from teachers and our superiors to raise us up in our potential abilities. But who knows the dilemma we had behind this fantastic and superficial kudos we portrait in front of people? Who knows that we, scholars suffered from various kind of pressure and harassment from the surrounding? Who knows what we feel and think about this?

Being a scholar is just like a lottery winner who gains a good ticket for him or her to get a bumper prize. The very first moment when we knew we could gain a scholarship from any bodies we applied to, the people around us surely would first, congrats us upon our honor; second, pieces of so-called "advice" would flooded our ears. (Poor us have to endure all the mantra from different people~)

Advices like:

"You are very lucky!!The government had given you a chance to achieve your goals in your life. The authority seldom open the opportunities to yellow skin people."
"You are brilliant!!!"
"You should appreciate this opportunity."
"Don't waste your talent, accept the offer!!"
"This is GREAT!!!"
"I'm so envy of you!! You are fantastic!!!"
"Hey, don't act stupidly. Grab this chance and move your feet to the stage....."
"Cheer up!!The government aren't so good that they will give you a second chance!! Accept it!!"

Sad to say, these are what the people will say once we get this "luck". I can't deny that some of the advices are true. The government seldom opens great chances for certain ethnic groups to have opportunities to pursue their dream especially students who are just finished their secondary education and those who are hoping for a chance to get a school. When these kind of thought run though our mind, we are indirectly being influenced by the opinion and ideas given by our elders, teachers, friends and the people when we are appraised by them. This is what I called as "Synchronized Ideas-Influenced Syndrome".

We are infected!!!!!!!!


For scholars like us, we are actually very lucky to have the opportunity to embark on our tertiary studies especially for those who are from poor family background. We will force to think in this way which, i think, is contradicting with our concepts and principles, and gradually, just like what the people think about us, we accept the "fact" that we are really brilliant and superb to have the chance to fly away and strike for the best.

It is very common for people to think that we are very brilliant and lucky to gain such a great chance to be a scholar, though, they do not really know what are the repercussions that follow up the acceptance of these kinds of scholarship on scholars themselves. Who really understand what we want from the status as a scholar? And who has good ears to be the listeners of us? The voice of resentment keep on accumulating in the mind of scholars, and who can appease the wave of indignation?

Scholars, scholars, scholars!!!!!!!!!

Stop treating us in such an arbitrary way, please!!!!

PLEASE!!!!!!!!!

Just like you, We are also HUMAN.
We are NOT super genius who have IQ score of 200;
We are NOT as brilliant as you think we are;
We are NOT problem settlers who you think we can solve every single task you give to us;
We are NOT the kind of person you think we are;
We are NOTHING but HUMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We are just as normal as you are.
For mercy, please give us a short while to breathe, treat us normally, raise us up slowly.Please...


We are just a group of innocent victims...of this modern world.

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Excess Alacrity

Dang! Dang! Dang! Dang!

Welcome back to Flying Fish de Story..
2009.11.01 (A Lovely Sunday)

First of November with my first theme for the month "Excess Alacrity".

Actually, I should not update my blog today because I had too many stuff to do, YET, I was reluctant to move myself to solve and to pick up those piles of homework and focus my sight on those plain and dull papers. Lol...applause and roses please, as I am willing to tell you the truth that I was lazy and too energetic till I couldn't concentrate on what I supposed to concentrate on. Come,come, clap,clap,clap...

Thank you!! Thank you!!!Thanks a lot!!!

Okay, what I am going to announce is...

"OH MY GOSH, Buddies!!NOVEMBER had came to the front of our door!!!!!Argh.....IELTS and Final Exam are coming SOON!!! Very soon!!!!Aaaaaaahhhhhh"

"What to do?? What to do??? What to do????"

"So how?? So how??? So how???"

Oh my gosh, I am going to be mad!!!(Pretending myself express in such a hysterical way.lol...)

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Hmm...do I need to explain why I was too vivid today??? Hmm...contemplating....
Okay, I think I shall tell you. The answer is...very simple...because...I also don't know!!Hahaha~~

Okay, serious now!! Today, I woke up very early in the morning owing to my two BEST friends chitchatted with a high pitch and volume in the living room, heehaa laughed out loud like mad in the morning, and my ear sensed their noise, so I instinctively woke up even though I felt reluctant to leave my bed alone at a corner of my room. WuuuWuuu

(T___________T)

Hahahaha~~~~

Well~~well~~at least updating my blog enables me to release some of my energy and to squeeze some of my..hmm..should be only a little bit of my brain juice to produce such a very GOOD essay..hohohoho..(For sure, English teacher will faint with their mouth bubbling out some white puke once they see this. Blek=P)

p/s: I am a GOOD and SUBMISSIVE girl especially to those who seem older than me..weeehaha..I won't torture my lovely "tea_char". Wakaka~~